Darn it!!

Okay, so I'm in Torts and I answered a pretty good question...so I'm thinking, okay, I'm out the woods of being called on...

Oh but no. I get called on. But its not like I didn't do the reading for class, its just that I totally mixed up and wasnt clear on the facts of a certain case. I got it so wrong, and I am so freaking embarrassed...I guess reading cases and trying your best to understand them isn't good enough.

Most law students say the embarrassment goes away quickly because no one really remembers your flub. Is this true?? I feel like running away and don't anyone in my section dare try to look me in the eyes. Total humiliation. Brutal...

Bingo!! (Keep it under wraps though)

Yeah, the concept of "Asshole Bingo" is a funny one (our torts professor put us on to it last class: write the names of the gunners in class on a bingo-like grid and when they make a comment or ask a question, cross their name out. When you've got a row, shout out "Bingo!"), but how about you keep it under wraps though....

I'm sitting right in back of a girl who is crossing off names as I type...but doesn't she realize that two of the most gunniest gunners sit in the two seats on either side of me? Yeah...they can see you. They can see you.

Oh, and P.S., is your name on your sheet? Look in the mirror, you're a gunner too!

I'm not bitter or anything...I think its an awesome game. But perhaps follow some guidelines:

1) Be a little more discreet with the game board...I would think it would be a little hurtful to see your name on asshole bingo

2) Don't make fun of gunners if you are a gunner. That doesn't make sense.

Dont know how you all do it...

I really have no idea how these law students can update their blogs almost everyday. I feel like I am surrounded by so many WORDS ALL THE TIME, that I loathe having to write more WORDS. Even if they are my personal words...I'm just not feeling WORDS after Property and Civ Pro... Regular blawgers, my hat goes off to you!

On law school: I've been in law school for almost a month now and I can officially say that...it's aiight!! I'm (finally) actually digging the classes (even Civ Pro now that I have some canned briefs to help me along!). I think they are very interesting, although it amazes me how complex the whole "thinking like a lawyer" thing is (it's like whoa, prof, how the heck did you get there? and WHY?). I know that once I am able to think like a lawyer, I'll be okay...but will I ever get there?? It looks dubious right now. But I suppose it will come.

On life: If I knew I'd be so lonely here, I definitely would have opted for a roommate. I am a very friendly person and have no trouble finding friends. But in law school, this has really tripped me up. I'm like is it because I'm a few years older than many of my 1L classmates? Is it because I'm not super outgoing? Is it because my hair is in a natural hairstyle? What is it? But alas, thank goodness for blawgs, I follow Lipgloss and she is experiencing exactly the same as me. At least I'm not alone in feeling this way. Maybe it is best to stay in your hometown when going to law school...

But its not like I have NO friends. There is a girl in my section who I am cool with and we exchange tidbits of what is going on for student organizations we are (kind of) involved in. We bitch about property and the like together, but...I dont feel like we could be great friends. There's not that...spark! I also have another friend who lives downstairs from me, but after she blew me off twice when I invited her to watch Housewives of Atlanta with me, I'm just not really feeling her either (she said she loves the show and I love the show, so.....??)

However, there is light at the end of the tunnel: I met a girl at a bowling night of one of the student organizations and she seems really cool. She is one of the more laid back ones and I like that. I cant be around stressed out people too much. The 2 and 3Ls are more laid back as well, thats probably why I click with them better also; probably could click better if we had some of the same classes together, but oh well. So me and my new friend ventured out on the town this past weekend, and I had a blast. We both bitched about how people were way too uptight and punished themselves for having any fun. I have a feeling she will be a good roll out buddy for when I need a much needed break. But we'll see...don't want to get too excited about the potential friendship and scare the girl away.

So that's that for now...I have a love/hate relationship with words right now, so we'll see when I'll be updating this blog again. Hopefully I will rekindle with my love of words one day!

"It's been a long time, I shouldn't have left you without a dope beat to step to."

Hey folks!! I know, it seems I haven't blogged in FOREVER! But, I have just started an adventure in my life that is completely new and foreign and crazy. Plus, I never mentioned blogging in my title...just eat, pray, and study!

Anyhow, it's been a CRAZY few weeks! Moving across country, going through orientation and starting classes has made these few weeks feel like a few months! But hopefully now that I'm settled, time will be kinder to me. I hate looking up at the calendar thinking its September, but its still August.

Now to law school...how were my first few days?? Daunting!! Luckily I met some people who went to my law school when I went to CLEO last month (geez, that was only a month ago?!?), or else I would really be in bad shape. Knowing absolutely no one sucks. First day of orientation, it seemed like everyone else knew each other except for me and a few other dweebs. Not fun. So I get through orientation unscathed, and it's on to the first week...

Ay yi yi!! My first class, LRW (Legal Reading and Writing) started off so scary! The prof got right down to business....she didn't even introduce herself to the class...just "So we are going to start off with a few legal terms you should know...does anyone know what an appellant is?" =-/

I swear they do that on purpose for first classes to weed out the people who would have a major panic attack after the first classes and decide right then that law school isn't for them (I actually know of a girl who said she had second thoughts about law school, but she's still in classes, so I guess she made it through that episode). The next class meeting, LRW prof was so casual, sat on her desk, told the class about herself, had everyone introduce themselves, and talked about the course and other housekeeping stuff. I felt so much more at ease; it's crazy how well she scared us shitless the first day. She made an excuse of how she was rushed that day because of the other LRW class that held its session in the same room after us...yeah right. Game recognize game...(not really, but i just really wanted to say that)

I already know what classes I like and don't like. So far, I like Torts, LRW, and Property. Not too fond of Civ Pro (civil procedure) at all. The prof talks like we should already know legalese and all the Rules already! The RULES...ah, the precious!

I still really don't know what to expect out of the exams...what do the profs want? If the exams are usually hypotheticals, how come profs don't really talk about hypos in class (besides from my torts class which is full of hypos, all class long!)? I guess I should start looking at prof's exams from previous years...

...but there is SO much to do! I feel overwhelmed at times, like I'm just barely keeping my head above water reading for classes. It's like I don't have time for ANYTHING else. I understand now why a month into law school, other bloggers were like, "When the hell do I have time to do outlines??" I get it. I finally get it. But you gotta start law school to really know what you are getting into.

The one thing I wish is that I had some friends (preferably outside the law school) here. I'm the kind of person who needs support from friends, especially when I have to encounter something scary and intimidating, aka law school. I have a few acquaintances in my classes, but that's all they are. Maybe as time goes on, I will develop closer friendships. I hope so, cause I don't know what I'll do without friends. Might have to transfer back to Cali...

So that's all for now, I propose that as soon as I get this crazy schedule down pack, I will be better able to keep up with blogging. For now, peace!

mmm, yeah...

Moving is NOT fun. At all. 

But on a better note, I got to visit my grandma on my dad's side who is 85 years old. I don't know when the next time I will be able to see her (hopefully at Christmas), but at that age, time is precious. However, I doubt that will be the last time I see her. The last time I visited her, she was jumping around and acting silly hiding from the camera when I tried to take her picture, and she still cleans and cooks her own meals by herself. Also, her older sister is still alive. She's 90. So, I'm not too concerned about my granny, she's a tough cookie (plus she takes fish oil!) I hope I was lucky enough to inherit those living long genes!

Law school orientation in T minus 4 days!!!

"The only thing we have to fear is fear itself."

Can't wait to get up outta here! Only 10 days until I catch my flight to Law School City!

Notice that I have a more positive outlook on law school than I did last week? I'm certain my change in attitude has somewhat to do with the CLEO Attitude Is Essential law seminar I attended this past weekend. CLEO is a non-profit section of the American Bar Association whose mission is to help minority and economically disadvantaged pre-law and law students become successful attorneys.

Not only did the 3-day long program help quell my fears of law school classes by having real professors from Berkley, UNLV, Howard, and others conduct mock law classes using the Socratic method (shout out to Professor Green for making EVERYONE get up and speak during her class!), but I met other friendly 0L students going to my law school.

I'm so relieved that law students aren't all super snooty and oozing competitiveness from their pores like I thought they might. Of course, the school year hasn't started yet, so my thinking might be premature, but I doubt it. They arranged for us to sit at tables where we met students going to law schools in our region and they were all super nice too. I will definitely be keeping in touch with them in case I ever need a refuge from my law school atmosphere. Also good for comparing outlines from different percpectives.

I concede with all my 0L peers about CLEO's advice for law school success. If you want to know some of the advice given, you can look at Mama Milla's and A Lupie Law Student's entries about CLEO because 1) they pretty much cover it and 2) I'm too lazy right now to list it (I still have 16 more days to be lazy, so leave me be!)

When I think about law school, I still get a little queasy. But at least I have "ginger ale" aka CLEO to calm my stomach! Thanks CLEO, keep up the good work. You can definitely count on me to give back to this wonderful program!

Random

I just found out my dad used to date  one of Joe Jackson's mistresses. Very random and a bit disturbing. (No, this is not my dad's ex-girlfriend in the photo, but I googled "Joe Jackson and his mistress" and this is all I could find.)

This lady used my dad and ran up his credit....Her and Joe will make a great couple! 

Back to law school related news, I am getting VERY nervous. At first I was so excited to be changing my scenery and moving across the country, but now....

Is it too late to change my mind? What would I do out here? Live in my parent's house with their thousands of kids (ok, only 3 and 1 other kid who is always over here) and teach the jr high ragamuffins? I don't think so.

I've been wanting to go to law school and become an attorney for a long time. I believe that one of my best talents are my reasoning, analyzing, and problem solving skills. So why not go into a profession that will hone in on my natural abilities? Lawyering seems like a great option for me. 

I think it's less being scared of law school than it is being away from family, friends, and the city that I've lived in for 25 years. This is all I know. Now I'm officially going to be on my own. On the other side of the country. Don't get me wrong, I really like the law school that I will be attending in less than a month (geesh!!) and I believe it will have the best opportunities for my budding law career but maybe I should've applied to more schools a bit closer to home.  

Oh well, there's no looking back now. Okay, I take that back, I actually can look back and stop this whole process, and apply for next year's admission into a closer school.   ( Long Pause.)   Yeah, that's not happening though. I'm ready right now.  I'm not patient. I know I'll get over my moving jitters and be fine.  I hope I'm not the only one who feels like this. I'm about to read some other blawgs to give me some comfort. Blawgs like A (Non) Token Minority who just made Law Review! Congrats! You inspire me!