Good girl gone bad

I'm not going to go into any sort of explanation, but I'll just say I've been a bad, bad girl. I've always been the good girl throughout school and amongst my friends and social circles. Plus, I look 5-8 years younger than I really am, further boosting my angelic persona.

However, in the words of the poster child of "good girl gone bad", Brittany Spears (really Rihanna should've put a pic of Brit on the album cover), "I'm not that innocent."

I proved to be guilty this weekend. And that's all imma say!!

On another note, and more law school related, I'm relieved and excited because I asked my grandparents for help with buying a new laptop for law school this weekend (wait...is it bad that I asked my grandfather for a laptop on father's day? Probably. Oh well...) and they said yes! So I get to go computer shopping this week to present a few options to them. This is a big load off my shoulders as money issues are running rapid (see previous post). Gotta love grandparents!! :-)

Money! I need it!

After a long, long hiatus, I returned back to work today. I'm a substitute teacher, so its not like I was missed, but I need to go back to work because I desperately need cash. I'm moving across the U.S. in a month and I need money! I'm already feeling the crunch since I found an apartment and had to send in my security deposit. And by August 1st, I'm going to need the first month's rent and I am quite sure my financial aid will not disperse into my account by then. Not to mention I need to pay for my plane ticket, books, and a computer....

Why cant money get disbursed a few weeks BEFORE school starts? That never made any sense to me. Especially since sometimes there are minor/major roadblocks to disbursement that don't present themselves until time of disbursement and so sometimes you have to wait another 2 more weeks until the kinks are worked out. Take my whack graduate school's disbursement for example in which it took me 3 semesters to learn that I have to call them a few weeks before disbursement just to make sure everything is on schedule...and sometimes even still I ran into issues. Hopefully my financial aid woes will not follow me to law school. In a city I have never lived in. And my immediate family is not there. It can be very stressful and time consuming; and I think I will need to save that stress for my law studies. As a matter of fact, after I send my "official" transcripts (since LSDAS transcripts aren't "official" enough *eye roll*) to my school I think I will give financial aid a courtesy call....

my monthly bad day

Cramps. Nuff said.

Decision made, I am ready to go

Oops! I was so into venting in my last post that I forgot to mention that I made my decision on which law school to attend this fall! While I won't specifically name the school, just know that it is in the top 50-100, a very good regional school and is across the country from where I live right now (I am on the west coast). I am 26 years old and have spent 26 years of my life in this same area. Needless to say I am super excited to be able to get out of my bubble and experience new things. And while we're on the subject...

I CANNOT WAIT TO GET OUT OF MY PARENTS HOUSE. Preface: my undergraduate institution was less than a mile from my parents. I lived on campus my 1st and 2nd year, but had to move back home 3rd year for financial reasons. It was hell. My little brother and two little sisters were approximately ages 5, 6, and 8. Throwing fits and running amuck were their favorite pastimes. I couldn't take it anymore so I saved up and looked for an apartment for 4th year, stat. Fast forward to now, I am a graduate student and I had to move back with my parents this past year due to a series of unfortunate events. And even though its a little better since my siblings are 6 years older now, it's still hell. I am ready to go. It seems like the closer I am to getting up out of here, my parents seem to want to push me over the edge so that I am estatic to leave the nest. I don't want to feel that way! I want to cry and be homesick for a little while. But instead I will be celebrating and singing, "Happy days are here again!" That's not cool.

And it's not that I don't appreciate everything they've done for me and I know I couldn't have made it this far without their love and support, but enough is enough. I need room to spread my wings. Which means my loans cannot be you financial crutch anymore. Nor can I babysit at the drop of a hat. I need some much deserved me time. My mom and my dad both had time to go off to college, be on their own and do their own thing. Well I am past due for mine. And that means leaving the state (and the time zone, which is even better!). Maybe I'm just a selfish bitch or maybe its in my DNA--my mom said that I couldn't wait to go to kindergarten and happily waved bye to my mom on the first day of school. While other kids were crying and hanging on to their mommies, my mom ended up crying, not expecting I would be so okay with being on my own.

Whatever the case, I am ready to go.

NOW.

"You had a better day..."

Today sucked. Nothing went right.I cried twice today and anyone who knows me knows I'm not a cry baby. However, me being the optimist that I am, I am thankful that tomorrow will more than likely not be as bad as today. Here's the list, in order:

1. Have to write a check for my brother's tuition, and pray that it takes the usual 7 days to process because it would zero out my account, thus leaving me with no ends to attend my friend's bachelorette party this weekend that I've been looking forward to for months.

2. Mom's not feeling good today. I have to make her breakfast, get her insulin, do her toenails, and make her lunch. Also, it's my day to cook dinner for the family.

2. Check my account online and find out I have $400 less than I thought. Stupid law school seat deposit cleared!

3. Find out that my brother's school has a new check processing system which should exract funds out my account by TOMORROW. Great.

4.Three minutes late to a market research study 45 minutes away. The $150 was going to help pay for hair and nail prep for this weekend. They say the group already started and turn me away.(At least they gave me $50 for gas) $100 down the drain.

5.Got into an arguement with my mom over #1 and #3.

6. Remember that dinner I made for the family? Guess who didn't any?(greedy bastards...)

7. "Aunt flo" visited tonight


All in all, I'd have to say this was a typical bad day. Not horrible, but pretty crappy. I'm just glad its over.

Welcome!

I used to have a blog, but it's quite old and I haven't blogged on it for 4+ years. I decided it was time for a new, fresh start. So don't ask me to include a link to my old one because I won't. Not like anyone is reading my first post, so I don't know who I was talking to with that last statement...

The main goal of this blog is to get my thoughts out, my frustrations and my concerns. Which I am sure I will have many of this next year as I enter into my first year of law school this fall. I am excited, even though I don't know which school I am going to as of yet, I am in the middle of my "cycle" (no, not that one! Eww!), the process of applying to and hearing back from law schools for the upcoming school year. I have heard back from one school that I am immensely interested in and they are giving me scholarship money! I know--awesome! But there are a couple of schools I might consider before this one if I get in. We will see and I will keep you updated (yeah, that was to my non existent audience, too;-) ).

Hopefully the choice in the title of my blog is more evident now, seeing as how I will be diving head first into the abyss of law studies. While I hope to regain my balance of work and play during my second year of law school, I realize from countless blogs, books, and articles of law student experiences my first year is THEE most crucial year of a student's 3 years. Your grades determine your 1st summer position and placement on law reviews/journals, which determines your 2nd summer position, where you are the most considered for job placement after graduation. I have so many freakin loans from undergrad, graduate, and now law school that I can't not have a well, WELL paying job coming out the gate. That's an impossibility (and that's probably not a word, but whatever). Therefore I MUST be a little unbalanced my first year (which is against my nature as a Libra). However, I endured it studying for the LSAT, so I have faith I can do it again and be successful. So here's to Eat, Pray, and Study (and not in that order...at all...but all quite important) :-)